Tak Sanggup

Ku tak sanggup lagi, jalani cinta denganmu.

Ban Motor Meledak

Setelah diserang morning headache, akhirnya aku memulai juga aktivitas hari ini. Biar tidak akan bisa datang ke kuliah tepat waktu, dengan langkah semangat aku berjalan.

Motor aku parkir di daerah Geodesi. Matahari bersinar terik. Segera saja aku menuju ruang kuliah. Di ruang kuliah, aku membalas beberapa SMS. Termasuk membalas satu SMS soal kabar bahwa kawan saya semasa SMA, Denny Satria, meninggal dunia. Banyak kenangan bersama yang aku habiskan bersama Denny. Menonton bola SEA Games di Senayan, numpang kencing di hotel, bermain timezone untuk mengejar menukar tiket dengan bola, juga jalan-jalan ke Dufan. Namun kejadian di bulan Agustus tahun 2000, membuat banyak perubahan antara aku dengan Denny.

Kuliah usai, bergegas aku bergegas karena dikejar si cantik report. Beberapa ratus meter motor berjalan, kok terasa ada yang aneh. Ealah, ternyata kempes. Yo weis, mau gimana lagi. Dengan langkah perlahan berusaha tetap semangat, aku tuntun motor ke tempat tambal ban terdekat.

Sempat dicegat satpam karena sepertinya aku mencurigakan. Hihi… untung STNK selalu ada di dompet. Sampai di tempat tambal ban, aku pikir bocor saja.

Hwrakadah! Ban motor terbelah menjadi dua dengan garis potong berupa beberapa garis tidak lurus yang linear.

Selfish

“Don’t try to do good, let good emerge as the byproduct of selfishness”, Adam Smith. I found this quotes while I read one of the Iskandar Alisjahbana’s article. Maybe I should learn to be selfish?

Haven’t

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields

I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls

Cinta di Yogya

Izinkanlah aku
Untuk selalu pulang lagi
Bila hati, mulai sepi, tanpa terobati

(Yogyakarta, Kla Project)
Foto diambil waktu hunting di Yogya

Writing Books

Two of my friends published their book. First is Marina and second is Heidy. Marina’s book is about traveling. FYI, she’s a backpacker. While Heidy’s book is telling about teeth (it’s funny story. No wonder it’s published by teen publisher). It’s been very long time, I haven’t write seriously. I mean a serious writing. Actually, there were ideas but I think now they disappear.

I would like say congratulation to Heidy and Marina for their book.

Lack of Visioning Ideas

I think I am lack of visioning ideas. I wrote on my book. “How to visualize ideas?”, with a picture of lamp below it. People usually associate ideas with lamp. When I writing documents, I confuse, how to visualize it? (Not to mention, actually I also confuse how to write it. But this would be different topic)

Should I take a drawing course? Or music course maybe? Or maybe saving some money to buy SLR Camera. Hihihi….

Open for A Change

I’ve made account on twitter. Yet another place of mine in a digital world. Am I an open minded person for a change? You tell me. It’s just another kind of blog. Twitter is designed specifically for short message. Short writing. You tell other people what are you doing right now.

Making a change is fun. You’ll find a new kind of things. Being on the edge of changes, is challenging. It’s like when you want other people join you.You can’t escape from changes. Look around us. What we do when do writing, reading, watching, now. Different aren’t we?

But making changes sometimes make us getting lost. Being nowhere? That’s why we need to remember the past. See photos, meet with our family, old friend, have a chit chat, write a diary, etc.

(Ah, I think I am loosing my grammar)

Change The World

If Winston Churchill once said, “If you’re going through hell, keep going”, may I said “If you’re going to change the world, keep going.”

Am I A Technologist?

I can’t find the better word to describe it. Am I a technologist? When I problem, I see it first from human approach. I didn’t say I am allergic to technology things. What I want trying to say is technology it’s just a tool.

Example, when our research group want to use redmine as a project management tools, I see it first from the bottom layer. Can’t we communicate? If we can’t communicate any tools won’t help. This is interesting. I found other people, who see technology as a driver for change. “Hey Zaki, use technology. And it will change how the way we work!”.

Suddenly I remember, Mr Samaun Samadikun. Mr Adi Indrayanto told me, that Mr Samaun is one of the people who quickly adopt email. When he was still alive, I still watching Mr Samaun’s writing on some of mailing lists.

In the end, too much reading/writing could make you forget how the way we do conversation. Hihi. It’s different topics.